I am so anxious right now. The more the time get close to 5:30pm. I feel sick. Yesterday, I started a part time job at a Christian bookstore. Today, supposed to be my second day of training, and yesterday things was fine. Really since the time I started filling out the application, my anxiety kicked it. It has been at least 2 years since I lasted worked. Pretty much of my life I have not been able to hold on to a job long because of my mental illness. It was in 2014 when I found out that I had an mental illness. Depression and anxiety was my life, and I can not shake it no matter how I try.
I feel that I am pushing myself all over again. I know what’s wrong now, I am taking my meds, and seeing my doctor like I should, so now I can do this thing. However, this is not the case.